Saturday, October 31, 2009

A "Bad" Dream

Today, I'd like to write about a dream I had last nite (this morning).

I was in a church. I don't remember which church this is now - but in the dream I did realize it was a church I had been to before a long time ago. I am guessing it is the Cathedral of Sacred Heart in JB.  Anyway, I was there with 2 friends .. don't recall who they are now. But one female and one male .. and we were just walking around .. and I went to examine the back part of the church recognizing that a lot had changed there. As I was feeling the walls, I noticed a stump of wood sticking out of the wall .. and it gave me the impression it was part of a cross or crucifix that used to hang there (altho in real life - I don't recall a cross or crucifix there before - assuming i have the right church).  So anyway, as I touched the stump of wood .. I felt a surge of energy go thru me. It was a weird feeling .. next as I turned I noticed my friends were about to leave .. i tried to move towards them and found I had difficulty moving. I tried to call out, but it would seem they could not hear me.

So i pushed myself as hard as i could to leave .. and i started towards the front door (but still far from it cos i was still neared to the altar).  Anyway, as I pushed myself to move I had collapsed onto the floor and I immediately reached out to call my friend .. the guy was just a little ahead of me .. and he didn't turned back towards me.  But then just as it appeared as if he would come to help me .. he hesitated and then turned back towards the door. It was as if he either couldn't see me on the floor or he couldn't hear me .. maybe it was cos there was no sound coming from me too even tho I was doing my best to yell out.

Next thing I know .. I was outside of the church now .. the two friends have disappeared. I just know I got out of the church, am very aware some evil or moster is about to come after me, and I had to run. I looked around for my bike (yes, I used to write a Suzuki 100 ER when I was a kid) but it was no where to be found. I ran around the church and still couldn't find it. Then I noticed a 125cc bike that looked kinda like mine (a scrambler). The key was in the ignition, so I jumped on it. I distinctly recall at that moment thinking "you can't steal this bike. it belongs to some one"  and that thot was immediately countered with "i just need to borrow it. i gotta get away"

i started up the bike and was riding off out of the church compound when I heard another bike coming towards me. my thoughts suggested that (no no it's not the ghost or moster or whatever) it was the guy or his friend coming to chase me for stealing the bike. So i tried to ride off .. going into the residential neighborhood turning here and there into back lanes etc .. but this darn bike was moving so ever slowly and the other bike was catching up.  Anyway, i eventually turned down one lane or rather out of one lane into a road that was going dowards a slope. I thot to myself "maybe this will give me more speed .. and the bike picked up speed.

Just as I heard the bike behind me turn onto this road as well, i made a sudden turn into an alley way which continued down a slope .. and the all of a sudden i reached the end of that path and it was .....

Down down down .. i was way way up some high place and I fell over the slope and now started free falling down .. looked like so far up and so far to go .. and my mind split to while I am still in the dream another part was awakening and said to myself "not again? another one of these drop off? drats .. i guess this is the way to end lah .."

And I woke up .....

I've had many dreams over the years of falling off a cliff or from some high place. I always thought this was an indication to me of how I would eventually leave this physical world. These dreams are more prevalent when I am ill or stressed over something. A friend told me recently that (he said according to Freud) dreams of falling suggest a lowered self esteem.  I wonder I wonder.  If that is the case, then it surely has to be because I have been "out of employment" and feeling unproductive and lacking direction of late. It's coming up to 3 months now .. and guess that means I need to get back into the swing of things and seriously find something to do to give me or allow me to feel some sense of accomplishment once more.

Oh well .. anyway - that was my "bad" dream ....

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Clearly a corrupt govt

To echo something I read in the Star this morning: The Government lacks the political will to combat corruption .. The Attorney-General should step down for dismissing this case. It's a scandal of the highest order to close such a high-profile and clear-cut case.

 If one doesn't consider this corrupt .. then you would at least have to see an incompetent one. Take your pick.

Monday, October 26, 2009

Do It Anyway

written by Mother Theresa

People are often unreasonable, illogical,
and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, People may accuse you
of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some
false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank,
people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building,
someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness,
they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today,
people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have,
and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you got anyway.

You see, in the final analysis,
it is between you and God;
It was never between you and them anyway.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

The Power of ONE

One song can spark a moment ~ One flower can wake the dream ~ One tree can start a forest ~ One bird can herald spring ~ One smile begins a friendship
One handclasp lifts a soul ~ One star can guide a ship at sea ~ One word can frame the goal ~ One vote can change a nation ~ One sunbeam lights a room.
One candle wipes out darkness ~ One laugh will conquer gloom ~ One step must start each journey ~ One word must start each prayer ~ One hope will raise our spirits
One touch can show you care ~ One voice can speak with wisdom ~ One heart can know what's true ~ One life can make the difference

You see, it's up to you! It just takes ONE ....